The official journal thread!

[Jared]

Well, i wanted to start this thread, for people to make their own journal entries about whats serious, and goin on in their life. If you dont want to post, you dont have to. But please, keep it on topic. Only journal entries, or comments to jurnal entries. All other posts will be deleted by myself. Ill go first.


03-25-03
1:37 am

It happened again tonight. She told me, maybe you should try to see someone else. Someone else? How could she say that!? She knows that I love HER, and she told me that. What was she trying to do? It hurt more than I can say to her her say that. It clicked, she didnt like me. She has no intrest in me. What we had, was lost, and will not be returning. I didnt know what to do. I had to blow off some steam.

My truck screamed to life once again. The low rumble of the exaust has grown to be soothing to me. Inside the truck, I am in control, I am in charge, my thoughts become organised. Something about it settles me down. Maybe its the deep history behind it. The last 3 years of my life have been great. My truck was there the whole way. When I look back at my teenage years, only one vehicle will be in my mind. The truck. I owe it to her, to make it the coolest truck ever, to get it on the cover, to finish what i have started. I headed to the car wash.
As i rubbed the tailgate with a lamb skin sheet, i thought. Do I still love her? Why do I have these feelings when they arent returned? Why do I gurt so much. Why does no one love me? My truck was there. My truck is always there. I love it. I love it more than anyone else has ever loved a vehicle. I would never sell it. Never. I need a girl like my truck. Always there for me. Always there. Maybe thats the appeal of it.
I had been rubbing the truck for about an hour when i realised i had cleaned it the day before. It didnt matter. I had to much on my mind. It was only 11:30. I had been alone at teh car wash for allmost 2 hours. Im always alone. No-one cleans there car that late. No one cares like I do. I went to bennigans. As i drove, the green lights above me seemed to fade together. Why were they all green? I wished they were all green other times when i was in a hurry. I sped down kearny at 80mph. I turned the stereo off so i coudl hear the engine shift gears. I felt better. For a moment i forgot what she said. Then it hit me again. The thought of her, in the light, like the day we went to the park, In the dress she wore to my cousins wedding, at my side at bennihanna on my 19th birthday. I love her. How can she not see? How could she not feel the same? 14 months, down the drain. So many girls i have turned down, so many situations ill never know. And for what? For meeting the girl of my dreams, and for a precious few weeks, being with her contantly. Its been off and on with us the last year. But, shes always been there when i needed her, and ive seen her every weekend. The streets were still empty as i croseed the bridge to bennigans. Why was I here? I had no need to come. I went end, got an employee freied cheese, and left. Why did i do that? I had to have something to occupy my thoughts. It was still her. My truck raced throuh the night as I went full throttle down 635. Flying past semis, i weaved purposly, just to make things interesting. I wonder if anyone caught milkmycow.com on the back window as i sped by. I dont know what she will say. I want her to love me to. It wont happen. Why? Cause I want her to. The world is against me, and everything good, must be spoiled. Its my curse. Sleep sets in as i pull into my driveway. I say to myself, ill start a new journal thread to share my feelings..

[Magita]

Um. I have an idea.

Why don't we make a subforum for just journal entries, with seperate threads for their comments?

I can't add anything today because..well, I just woke up. Tired.

[Magita]

Also, erm...sorry.

*feels decidedly uncomfortable*

*hug*

[HRslammR]

suck it up and move on!

i feels ya pain

[brandon-n]

magita, not a bad idea. ill make a journal area in the new design

[Magita]

Oooh...can I be mod?!

:)

teehee.

[Ol' Dirty Bastard]

Today:

I've been at work since 7am, it's now 6:30pm and i got back at 5pm. Some stupid fucking pikey bitch complained today about her egg McMuffin. She was all, "this egg has black on the bottom, are you trying to give me salmonella? Why the fuck are some people so STUPID?! Black on the bottom of your egg? It's been on the grill too long you stupid motherfucker!!! Bitch please, you can't get salmonella from a burnt egg. moron.

Then later on a ladyfriend of mine, well, one of my ex girlfriends came in, she's hott. Quite a coincidence that she gave me a "knowing" smile...i'm considering ending with my girlfriend. Not because there's anything wrong with her, she's awesome...but i don't feel it going anywhere, so i'm doing myself outta happiness, it's also not quite fair on her. A girl i work with who's 19 asked me what i'm doing this weekend, i said "i'm washing my hair". She knows i was joking but i think she hoped i'd been serious about it. No, sorry.

ODB

[HRslammR]

Originally posted by Ol' Dirty Bastard
Today:

I've been at work since 7am, it's now 6:30pm and i got back at 5pm. Some stupid fucking pikey bitch complained today about her egg McMuffin. She was all, "this egg has black on the bottom, are you trying to give me salmonella? Why the fuck are some people so STUPID?! Black on the bottom of your egg? It's been on the grill too long you stupid motherfucker!!! Bitch please, you can't get salmonella from a burnt egg. moron.

Then later on a ladyfriend of mine, well, one of my ex girlfriends came in, she's hott. Quite a coincidence that she gave me a "knowing" smile...i'm considering ending with my girlfriend. Not because there's anything wrong with her, she's awesome...but i don't feel it going anywhere, so i'm doing myself outta happiness, it's also not quite fair on her. A girl i work with who's 19 asked me what i'm doing this weekend, i said "i'm washing my hair". She knows i was joking but i think she hoped i'd been serious about it. No, sorry.

ODB

you work at mcdonalds?

man no offesne but that's the source of your problems =-/

[Ol' Dirty Bastard]

No, it's the source of my income. I'm 17, it's hardly as if my career options are infinite at the moment...

ODB

[Shawn5]

do you know anything about cars? I just got a job at a Kwik Kar, and I'm going to UTI (best automotive tech school in the nation) starting this summer, I'd say my carreer is pretty well set, I'm also 17. How much does McDonalds start at now? jw

[Rick Fernando]

Heh, I just applied at the Commerce McDonald's (and other places). Soon enough I shall be rolling in the cash and on 22's...

[Meesheltx]

heh...you're going to UTI...urinary tract infection! ...i'm all too familiar with that phrase...

[Shawn5]

Universal Technical Institute maybe? ew, i don't wanna know about that, lol.

[Rick Fernando]

Originally posted by Meesheltx
heh...you're going to UTI...urinary tract infection! ...i'm all too familiar with that phrase...

Maybe it's best to keep that one on the down low...

[Whitney]

i was thinking the same

[Jared]

So, getting back to the topic, and procedding according to the rules.

03-25-03
9:40pm

I get out of college at 9:30pm. I was expecting rain, but thank god it never came. At least for me anyways. Once again the truck roars to life. It takes about 30 seconds to power everything on, dvd, stereo, tv, neon lights, marquee.. Its nighttime, and the air has a slight chill as compared to the afternoon breeze today. Dspite, i cruise with the windows all the way down, as usual. For many, the cold would be a burden, or perhaps unbearable. But for me, its unusally mellophobic. In less than 8 seconds I am in the mid 70's, and on my way up to the usual crusing speed of 90. In the south, i can see lightning in the sky, above town east mall as i speed by. Its the normal routine, weaving through traffic, riding in the tails of semis, and darting out at the last minute. Its a rush that will never end for me. A rush that helps me to forget her. Even now, shes in the back of my mind. I know she loves me too. When will she realise? I dont want it to be to late. Linkin Park belts out of my speakers louder than usual. Even with teh windows down at 90mph, i can hear every detail. I suppose that new component system paid off.. The lightning grows more frequent, and the reflection off my hood becomes one with the night sky. For a moment, I am the sky. My truck is all alone, and i am soaring. Flash. Im on 80 going 100. 2 lanes, with mid traffic. Out of my way i think, im more important than you. Somehow, they know also. The cars move aside long before i pass them. The wind howls. I must be heading straight for it. Im home. Im home. I hope it dosent rain.

[.the bitch.]

3/25/03


I really despise life in general and even more so i despise my mother and step-dad. I must have forgotten that the whole world revolves around them and that they forgot they have kids. I certainly didnt have them nor do i want any ever. My mom's maturity level stayed in her teenage years and although she is in her mid 30's now, it doesnt seem to have any affect. Or the fact that she has 5 kids and has to take care of 4. One would think that would make someone mature and responsible, but it hasnt. My step dad was seeing some woman while him and my mom were separated for like 8 months and my mom found out and she began to snoop and sneak and often asked me to help. I did so because i felt obliged to and if i told her how she was wrong for doing that she'd call me a bitch and ground me. Even now she continues to do it even after like 2 weeks ago my dad told that lady to stop trying to contact him. She cant stop or let ago and just tonight i asked her why she cant let it go and she told me to go away. My mom has serious mental problems and i sometimes wonder how many pills shes really on...besdies prozac and diet pills. Now im thinking i have anxiety problems or depression..i dont really know. I have fast mood swings that like change at least 7 times a day...at least. They scare me and usually i try to play it off but honestly i think i need to see someone about it. God theres so much stuff thats going on and i cant deal with it...its pretty sad when the child is more grown up and responsible than the parents. How many 10 year olds can balance a check book? Or how many normal kids would cut themselves for a little attention?

[Shawn5]

please do see someone about that, I had 2 gf's in a row that were really depressed, you don't sound as bad as them, but thats good, get help early. It's no fun listening to your gf tell u the gun fits in her mouth just right. I'm sure its even less fun being on the other end and not being able to help it. So ya, don't delay getting help, cuz later on you'll have yourself convinced that you don't need it, or that you "don't care anymore, maybe next cut I'll get something vital"

[Jared]

Originally posted by luckyducksfoot
3/25/03


I really despise life in general and even more so i despise my mother and step-dad. I must have forgotten that the whole world revolves around them and that they forgot they have kids. I certainly didnt have them nor do i want any ever. My mom's maturity level stayed in her teenage years and although she is in her mid 30's now, it doesnt seem to have any affect. Or the fact that she has 5 kids and has to take care of 4. One would think that would make someone mature and responsible, but it hasnt. My step dad was seeing some woman while him and my mom were separated for like 8 months and my mom found out and she began to snoop and sneak and often asked me to help. I did so because i felt obliged to and if i told her how she was wrong for doing that she'd call me a bitch and ground me. Even now she continues to do it even after like 2 weeks ago my dad told that lady to stop trying to contact him. She cant stop or let ago and just tonight i asked her why she cant let it go and she told me to go away. My mom has serious mental problems and i sometimes wonder how many pills shes really on...besdies prozac and diet pills. Now im thinking i have anxiety problems or depression..i dont really know. I have fast mood swings that like change at least 7 times a day...at least. They scare me and usually i try to play it off but honestly i think i need to see someone about it. God theres so much stuff thats going on and i cant deal with it...its pretty sad when the child is more grown up and responsible than the parents. How many 10 year olds can balance a check book? Or how many normal kids would cut themselves for a little attention?

Wow. Thanks for being open. It helps us all to get to know you better. Sometimes i forget other people have problems too. If you ever need someone, or just wanna talk about things, call me.
972-342-3998. This goes for everyone.

[casey]

Originally posted by Shawn5
please do see someone about that, I had 2 gf's in a row that were really depressed, you don't sound as bad as them, but thats good, get help early. It's no fun listening to your gf tell u the gun fits in her mouth just right. I'm sure its even less fun being on the other end and not being able to help it. So ya, don't delay getting help, cuz later on you'll have yourself convinced that you don't need it, or that you "don't care anymore, maybe next cut I'll get something vital"

thats horrible. i would hate to try and deal with someone like that. i would have no idea what to do/say :confused:

[Shawn5]

yea, as if breaking up w/ someone isn't bad, try breaking up w/ them and talking them out of suicide at the same time. NEways, I think i'm doing the most messing up of the Journals only thing, so i'll stop, lol.

[.the bitch.]

no its on topic

[Shawn5]

oh, alright, nuthin to say at the moment though....

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

luckyducksfoot,
im sorry to hear what you have to go through. i understand in a way..if you cut yourself on your arms...watch out. i would suggest you to try to stop. cut yourself in the wrong place and...well, you wont end up too well.
pills...i dont know if you've had thoughts on taking any but never begin to take any. you'll think it feels better like you have more control. but really..it hurts you. you'll want more and more. then you'll do anything for one pill, and you'll feel like theres nothing there when you dont have any pills to take. so do not ever start.
i'm sorry you to despise your family. you'll probably loathe them for the rest of your life, but theres always others who will be there for you like devin. your friends..keep them. they'll always be there for you even when it doesnt seem like it and when it feels like no one cares. everyone goes through it. its part of the life we all scorn. need to talk? aycheewawa21 on AIM. best of luck to you. -joann.

[.the bitch.]

your sig. scares me joann...anyways no pills yet...once i tried to take my moms thinking maybe id feel better but i didnt...thanks though...yall must think im crazy

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

no..youre not crazy. actually you are REALLY NORMAL compared to what ive thought about and how i feel sometimes. theres this diary i keep...and if someone read it. they'll probably think i have suicidal tendencies or something. someone would probably take me to a hospital and diagnose me w/ some pyscho disease. oh well...its life. youre not crazy.

[casey]

Originally posted by Ay ChEe WaWa
no..youre not crazy. actually you are REALLY NORMAL compared to what ive thought about and how i feel sometimes. theres this diary i keep...and if someone read it. they'll probably think i have suicidal tendencies or something. someone would probably take me to a hospital and diagnose me w/ some pyscho disease. oh well...its life. youre not crazy.

yeah, i used to have some journals and i was cleaning out my room last week and reading them.. i wrote some crazy stuff in there.

the last couple days i've been kinda sad cause my hair feels so short.. because theres this one girl at school i see with really short hair and it looks really bad.. and then i get all paranoid that mine looks just like hers.. but im slowly getting used to it.

but what really bothers me is B-days now.. I used to love them.. but 2nd and 4th period give me headaches because of dumb people. it's really bad that i let the way people act affect me. i just get so annoyed with people so easily lately. oh, and at my rehearsals on sunday nights for this musical im in, i just want to yell at these kids who take for granted what we're doing.. and just mess around when we should be working because we have a really important musical to do that will be really good if we just stayed focus.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

haha poor casey...so youve been getting sad cuz youre hair is..short? lol oh my..*shakes head* casey..casey...

[casey]

lol.. i'm getting more used to it. my petty insecurities..

[JuilliardDreamer]

Originally posted by Jared
Well, i wanted to start this thread, for people to make their own journal entries about whats serious, and goin on in their life. If you dont want to post, you dont have to. But please, keep it on topic. Only journal entries, or comments to jurnal entries. All other posts will be deleted by myself. Ill go first.


03-25-03
1:37 am

It happened again tonight. She told me, maybe you should try to see someone else. Someone else? How could she say that!? She knows that I love HER, and she told me that. What was she trying to do? It hurt more than I can say to her her say that. It clicked, she didnt like me. She has no intrest in me. What we had, was lost, and will not be returning. I didnt know what to do. I had to blow off some steam.

My truck screamed to life once again. The low rumble of the exaust has grown to be soothing to me. Inside the truck, I am in control, I am in charge, my thoughts become organised. Something about it settles me down. Maybe its the deep history behind it. The last 3 years of my life have been great. My truck was there the whole way. When I look back at my teenage years, only one vehicle will be in my mind. The truck. I owe it to her, to make it the coolest truck ever, to get it on the cover, to finish what i have started. I headed to the car wash.
As i rubbed the tailgate with a lamb skin sheet, i thought. Do I still love her? Why do I have these feelings when they arent returned? Why do I gurt so much. Why does no one love me? My truck was there. My truck is always there. I love it. I love it more than anyone else has ever loved a vehicle. I would never sell it. Never. I need a girl like my truck. Always there for me. Always there. Maybe thats the appeal of it.
I had been rubbing the truck for about an hour when i realised i had cleaned it the day before. It didnt matter. I had to much on my mind. It was only 11:30. I had been alone at teh car wash for allmost 2 hours. Im always alone. No-one cleans there car that late. No one cares like I do. I went to bennigans. As i drove, the green lights above me seemed to fade together. Why were they all green? I wished they were all green other times when i was in a hurry. I sped down kearny at 80mph. I turned the stereo off so i coudl hear the engine shift gears. I felt better. For a moment i forgot what she said. Then it hit me again. The thought of her, in the light, like the day we went to the park, In the dress she wore to my cousins wedding, at my side at bennihanna on my 19th birthday. I love her. How can she not see? How could she not feel the same? 14 months, down the drain. So many girls i have turned down, so many situations ill never know. And for what? For meeting the girl of my dreams, and for a precious few weeks, being with her contantly. Its been off and on with us the last year. But, shes always been there when i needed her, and ive seen her every weekend. The streets were still empty as i croseed the bridge to bennigans. Why was I here? I had no need to come. I went end, got an employee freied cheese, and left. Why did i do that? I had to have something to occupy my thoughts. It was still her. My truck raced throuh the night as I went full throttle down 635. Flying past semis, i weaved purposly, just to make things interesting. I wonder if anyone caught milkmycow.com on the back window as i sped by. I dont know what she will say. I want her to love me to. It wont happen. Why? Cause I want her to. The world is against me, and everything good, must be spoiled. Its my curse. Sleep sets in as i pull into my driveway. I say to myself, ill start a new journal thread to share my feelings..

Jared, you know what I always tell you...you dont deserve to put your heart and soul into a girl that wont give you the same back. You said yourself that you want a "girl like your truck, one who is always there for you etc"...well, I say get out there and find one!!! Don't keep dwelling on someone who you said yourself doesnt love you...you've heard this from me before. You deserve better! Love you sweetie!

[Jenny]

Originally posted by luckyducksfoot
anyways no pills yet...once i tried to take my moms thinking maybe id feel better but i didnt...thanks though...yall must think im crazy

ya know... the ones that sit there and judge you, and act like nothing 'odd' or 'out of whack' is going on in their lives... well it doesn't matter what they think anyway. Honestly, I know how you feel. Now, my situation isn't quite the same, but we ALL have issues that we must deal with, and problems that we must experience. I'm sorry to hear that you have a lot of crap to go through, but in the end, it only makes you stronger and a better person. You will learn from all this, and it will actually help you in a lot of cases later in life, believe it or not.

I know I've been a creep to you sometimes. (and it won't stop :teeth: ) but i only joke. Honestly, if you ever need to talk, I'm an awesome listener. :) And my advice isn't ALL that bad. :) JennChik22 on AIM, hit me up sometime.

[pimptress]

Originally posted by Devin
And for all you people who say I don't know what love is, you can all goto hell.

why am i so sure that that comment was aimed at me? oh well.. i'll just refrain from further comment on that one..

anywho.. umm i'm not really the internet diary posting type.. but i'll post a poem i guess.. its kinda gay cause i wrote it a while back but oh well...

i need someone to talk to
but nobody is standing there
no one at my side
no one to just care

i stand here all alone
once i was surrounded by many friends
when my happiness was just beginning
it has quickly come to an end

my friends have all departed
and left me to be with me
i dig my silent grave
just so that i can be free
-Stephanie DeTamble

[Jenny]

*thumbs up*

[kaytie]

that was actually really good....but i'm the same...i'm not a journal or diary person and i definately can't do poetry!

[Jenny]

ha. I've written some stuff... but I don't share it. :)

[Rick Fernando]

I always try to write stuff, but throw it away or stop because I think it sucks ^^.

[Jenny]

I think that you should still keep it... just find a folder or something and put it away. I always enjoy going back and looking over old stuff that I've written... it's, like... a part of me. Or something. :( I don't know.

[JuilliardDreamer]

I agree

[.the bitch.]

i do that too jenny...i keep all my school papers and poems..and thanks for the post thing..made me feel better

[Mallory]

I'm not much of a journal person. I've never had one. but I hate my mom and I realized today that if she died that i wouldn't cry or miss her. * thats my journal lol a sentence* My mom is kinda like Lucky's 40 acts like she's 18 still goes to clubs and gets drunk and spends my college fund to take vacations stupid bitch.

[.the bitch.]

yeah my mom is working on becoming a straight -up drunk...it sucks when your little brother asks you what it is and you dont wanna tell him...

[Mallory]

ya my mom says she doesn't have any money to give me to eat lunch but then she will come home w/ a $40 bottle of vodka.

[Jenny]

Originally posted by luckyducksfoot
i do that too jenny...i keep all my school papers and poems..and thanks for the post thing..made me feel better

I promise, I meant it. :)

[Nyeh]

yeah not many people know if i have feelings, i think i'll keep it that way

[Rick Fernando]

But with that very statement you have revealed your feeling-having-ness. Might as well go all the way now.

[Jenny]

Originally posted by Nyeh
yeah not many people know if i have feelings, i think i'll keep it that way

<-- is special. :)

[Nyeh]

Originally posted by Rick Fernando
But with that very statement you have revealed your feeling-having-ness. Might as well go all the way now.
oh, i said if i have feelings, these people that know just have a definite answer on whether i do or not

[Rick Fernando]

But, had you no feelings, it is very unlikely that you would have made that statement.

[Jenny]

SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH


and that's not true, persay.

[Rick Fernando]

Not *strictly* true, but not a big leap of faith either.

[Jenny]

well since it's not *strictly* true... you shouldn't jump to conclusions about him, now should you? ;)

[Rick Fernando]

Why not? What will happen if I do?

[Jenny]

Mike will anal-rape you.

[Ol' Dirty Bastard]

Originally posted by Mallory
ya my mom says she doesn't have any money to give me to eat lunch but then she will come home w/ a $40 bottle of vodka.

Aww, sucks. i'll buy your lunch :)

ODB

[.the bitch.]

Originally posted by Jenny
I promise, I meant it. :)

*hugs*

[Ol' Dirty Bastard]

Originally posted by Jenny
SSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH


and that's not true, persay.

**per se

:)

ODB

[Meesheltx]

yeah...i'm bringing this back.

i'm in a reeeeeeally pissy mood. and i declare this my official bitch day! sometimes i swear i feel like everything in my life is figured out and i have no worries, and then a minute later everthing is questionable. i've been on the verge of bitching someone out like 4 different times today, and thats a very rare thing for me. and my foot fuckin hurts!!!!!!!!! and i'm sad... and i'm confused about everything, and i'm ready to graduate, and....grrr...i can't even put things into words that make sense so i'm just gonna stop trying...

[.the bitch.]

lol devin is special

[casey]

today i was taking this little quiz online to see what taking back sunday quote i was. and i got this:
"best friends means you get what you deserve"
you have trouble keeping you're friends. you're always fighting with them and you're not too sure if you care as much about them. therefore you think you deserve nothing. which in that case you probably dont. but if you deserve everything you've kept the same friend almost you're whole childhood. and you're happy. and thats good.

it was kinda sad... :( cause those bold parts are pretty much true. i go through different stages where i hang out with different people. and then i just drop some because i get annoyed or mad or something. thats what i do to boyfriends, too.. hm.. i dunno what to do about it though. its like i can never be happy about someone too long. and when i do like something-- it never stays the way you want. ironic stuff.

[pimptress]

once again... i was kris's bitch today...

that is all

(thats my diary entry for the day... not really but i seriously was.. plus we're talking about days and i dunno.. random thing.. weeeeee)

[P a t r i c k]

Journal entry 1:
I hate journals.

[SexySoprano4]

Life sucks. Guys are jerks. Enough said.
^^ i had a GREAT day..*fake smile*

[Whitney]

4-3-02

on thursdays in volleyball we do this "team leadership" thing with our whole volleyball program and mrs.nichols (asst. principal) and today we talking about being "enthusiastic" and there was a part in this book we r reading and it basically said to be enthusiastic u need to be around people who r enthusiastic -- u know people that aren't going to bring u down, but keep u up!...and i have offically PUT MY FOOT DOWN and finally have come to the conclusion that im NOT going to hang-out with a certain "crowd" or 2 certain people is more like it! IM SO PROUD OF MY SELF!! i have 2 friends that constantly bring my down and rub off on me to make stupid decisions... (ex: during volleyball in the past when we would have to do 500 jump ropes, we would always CHEAT and do like 350? ) just stupid little things like that and them thinking they r the hottest things in MHS and we have these shirts made that say "JUNYAS" on it and because of them 2 WE as a GROUP are known as the snobby stuk up girls...like the other day one of my other GOOD friends was walking with this other girl courtney the other day and one of the BAD friends was with them and when courtney walked off she was like "im so glad she left i was getting embarrsed walking with her!" WTF??? who r u to judge any 1? i love courtney to death! i have known her since like 2nd grade! that just pisses me off...and thats NOT ME and im sick of getting these "titles" and shit put on me! so i have decided to GROW UP and let them base their whole lives around high school and their lil popularity contest and see how far they get in life when in 10 years...im living the good life! HA!!!

[pimptress]

wow thats awesome

*is proud of whitney*

by the way.. JV GIRLS AND BOYS WON DISTRICT TODAY!! WOO HOOO!

not that anybody cares but i figured i'd let you know anyways

[Staci]

Whitney, I didnt know the juniors were that bad. When I went to MHS we did have our group of friends, but we also talked to anybody and everybody. But I do know how you feel about labels, and it is gay. When I made All-Star the people that werent really my friends but that just had a class with me or something stopped talking to me and started calling me a hoe for being on drill team. It was retard. But now the drill team is not looked at in a snob only group because Lindsey and Lauren are great gals and have always been nice to everyone. I remember one day after we had all got through eating lunch some really wierd guy (who none of us knew) came up to Lauren and asked her for her number, lol. It was great. Until I saw him again later that day and he asked me for my number. Turns out he asked alot of us for our number. lol. I dont even remember the kids name I just remember that he was really really wierd. But no one had the heart to reject him.

[pimptress]

Originally posted by Devin
journal entry:

also, i pooped and masturbated today. but not at the same time. oh and i thought it would be cool to have a tail. heh yea. oh and i applied for a job @ a tech support company. and i have the sat's on saturday. heh im gonna fuck those up hard...

man typing sucks... i quit

do that and i will kill you...

gah you are too smart to do stupid stuff like that... i know you're smart but doing stuff like that does not prove it at all.. its actuallly kind of immature... seriously now..

ok i'm not going to get into it with you.. just don't do that.. you used to get mad at me when i wouldn't do my HOMEWORK.. don't screw up your sat's and crap..

*dances* i got a 65 for two test grades.. stupid ms. hix can't count

[EyezOfHazelFire]

About two months ago one of my really good friend Travis came to me for help, he needed someone to talk to about his girlfriend Lindsay. She broke up with him after a year because her so called bestfriend told her to (she is really immature). And well he came to me to talk because I knew exactly what he was going through, and we started to hang out like almost everyday. Then one day we went out to eat and he just opened up and told me he liked me. And then a couple weeks later our school had our "dance" well, consideriung it was Seagoville it was very boring so, we left early and all I really wanted was that one slow dance, I was kinda upset, and he knew. Well then he stopped the car and turned on this slow song and took me by the hand, then we danced in the middle of the street. That night was the first time he said "I love you." Everything was going perfect when a month later,Lindsay came crawling back and lets just say she came to him with open legs. Of course, I broke up with him, it has been 3 weeks and ever though he was the one who fucked I still want him back. But he doesnt know what he wants and, the past 3 weeks have been filled with mixed emotions expecially when he tells me he still loves me and cares. What to do?

[.the bitch.]

dont crawl back to him..hes an ass for being confused and saying i love you to you...if he really did then he would know what he wants

[<3]

Wow Whitney, I am so proud of you! I have heard some things about basically the same things you said about what ya'll used to do, and some people have said they don't think you would really change and that you were only saying that, but I believe you and that is really great! I have been trying to get rid of my "toxic" friends too! One of my best friends was in volleyball last season and all year all she did was be negative and gripe about how she never got to play, and how the coaches didn't pay enough attention to her, and they were putting a good player on the bench. All she cared about was herself and it rubbed off on me a little, but after doing leadership training I have turned all of that around. I haven't stopped being her friend, because she is only that way in volleyball and she isn't playing next year. BUT I talked to her about some of the things that have been said on Thursdays, so rather than not being her friend because of this, I'm trying to change her perspective instead. I figure if I can just do that, maybe it will help her in other things she does and I wont be labeled as a negative person, or a "complainer" like I was before. Do you think I am doing the right thing?

[pimptress]

Originally posted by EyezOfHazelFire
About two months ago one of my really good friend Travis came to me for help, he needed someone to talk to about his girlfriend Lindsay. She broke up with him after a year because her so called bestfriend told her to (she is really immature). And well he came to me to talk because I knew exactly what he was going through, and we started to hang out like almost everyday. Then one day we went out to eat and he just opened up and told me he liked me. And then a couple weeks later our school had our "dance" well, consideriung it was Seagoville it was very boring so, we left early and all I really wanted was that one slow dance, I was kinda upset, and he knew. Well then he stopped the car and turned on this slow song and took me by the hand, then we danced in the middle of the street. That night was the first time he said "I love you." Everything was going perfect when a month later,Lindsay came crawling back and lets just say she came to him with open legs. Of course, I broke up with him, it has been 3 weeks and ever though he was the one who fucked I still want him back. But he doesnt know what he wants and, the past 3 weeks have been filled with mixed emotions expecially when he tells me he still loves me and cares. What to do?

i know what you mean. i've been there. plenty of boyfriends have cheated on me. think about it this way: if they can't stay true, they obviously don't love you. it pisses me off when guys say that they love somebody but do all kinds of mean stuff to them. its like "uhh wheres the love?" and plus then we have my whole love theory.. ya... its in the sex and relationships forum.. under "i'm in love..." you can't miss it.. read it

[EyezOfHazelFire]

Hey well thanx for ur input it helps to know what you all think expecially when you speak from experience! Ohh and pimptress what is your real name you seem like someone I could talk to?!?

[Fidel]

If you guys think this is bad, Agnew is even worse. There are gonna be so many hoes next year. My friend Dan and Anthony, two eighth graders, were talking about them. They said girls giving head and having sex was daily and that even Anthony had gotten head. That totally sickened me out.

THAT'S THE HEYDAY OF ALL PITINESS. Our generation has become really fucked up. At least some of these younger kids. Nowadays, you'll see little 10 year old skanks and shit. It's so demoralizing.

[Fidel]

Sorry for the double post, but I've also been having some issues and problems. Opening up here though would leave me TOTALLY vulnerable and leave you guys with a surplus and extraneous amount of information that you'd rather not here or care about. So I'd rather not.

[.the bitch.]

i wanna know

[pimptress]

Originally posted by EyezOfHazelFire
Hey well thanx for ur input it helps to know what you all think expecially when you speak from experience! Ohh and pimptress what is your real name you seem like someone I could talk to?!?

the name's stephanie..

if you wanna talk.. just im me at skeeterbabe405

that goes for anybody.. YOU TOO FIDELY! i'm gunna have to have a word with you little boy.. you didn't tell me you were having problems.. *pouts* i think we're going to go to sonic and you will tell me all there big fid..

[EyezOfHazelFire]

thanx!

[pimptress]

no prob.. anytime.. i love to help people and i usually give some good advice.. or if i can't i can direct you to somebody that can

[Big J]

9:35 p.m.

Went to the Galleria today to hang out with this girl named Joy... I really like her... We hung out for a couple of hours just walking around the mall and talking, after I had to meet her mom (per "the rules")... Anyway, left there about 6:30, got home about 6:45. Gotta love flying down 635 at 90 mph. Decided to put my car in the garage since there was some pretty bad looking storms on the radar, even though now I think they're all passing north of us. Better safe than sorry, I'd rather not have hail damage destroy my car.

Anyway, back to the subject of Joy, I talked to her a few minutes ago... This is like the fourth time this has happened to me... I really like a girl, and think they like me, then I find out they like someone else more than me. According to her I'm a "nice guy" and a "good person," but she doesn't like me in that way, at least not as much as this other guy named Zach. Well fuck. This is becoming the god damn norm for me, liking a girl that kind of likes me, but nowhere near as much as she likes some other. I just want to get the hell out of here right now, go driving... But I can't, my mom's car is on the driveway behind mine in the garage, so I'm stuck here.

Fuck.

[pimptress]

10:41pm

i just read jeff's journal entry.. and i am sad..

he shouldn't feel that way.. he should just shrug it off and move on.. crap happens ya.. when i was in grade school nobody would go out with me.. i was ugly.. and i'm a sophomore in highschool and i still can't keep a guy for more than 2 weeks.. it sucks but i've just learned not to care.. and he really shouldn't let this stuff get to him.. it makes me feel sad that it does..

well its 10:43 and i am currently robinless and sad because of blue's entry.. i also have tacquitos in front of me.. they're completely disgusting right now.. well i guess i better go

Puck.

^hehe much love blue

[casey]

aw i got sad, too.

today i--
worked out with old ladies
cleaned a ladies house
cleaned muddy rocks and got dirty
took a shower
took my wendy to the mall with me
returned shirts my mom didnt want, resulting in $2 capris at jcpenney plus $40 to find a shirt tommorrow
saw some church in coppell do "godspell"
the show was like 45 minutes longer than our version.. and not much better.
pimped out in the silverado when me and wendy got back and went to wendy's.
i am tired now.

Duck.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

im too lazy to type a journal entry so i'm just gonna skip to the end soooo my turn!

Luck.
no, wait...
Suck.
yay.

[casey]

joann makes my heart smile <:)3

[Jay]

Blue, that's life man...and it does suck sometimes.

I haven't had a serious romantic interest since the Fall of my senior year of high school. I'm now in my sophomore year of college. I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me always being single like this. I think I've pretty much gotten used to the fact that the odds of a girl I like liking me back are slim to none. I've come to accept it in a way, I guess, and I have a few really supportive friends that make life much easier to live. Unfortunately, two of closest friends here have just started dating, so I can see the time I get to spend with them being much less in the future, which may make things a bit rough for a while. :-/

Stephanie, you'll find someone...I promise. I don't even know you that well, but you're a pretty girl and you seem to have a great personality. Any guy would be lucky to have you, but don't give in to just anyone.

I'm not online too much anymore, but if I am, any of you are welcome to message me. Jayzer34 is the s/n.

[brandon-n]

girls drive me insane.. literally. they will cause me to kill myself some day

[Rick Fernando]

Aww, Jay, you moping piece of crap, and I mean that in a good way ;-). You won't be lonely forever. I know the type that is and you are not it. You'll find someone eventually, even if it doesn't seem like. These cliched platitudes are probably meaningless to you, though, so...Just saying, I don't think you'll be without a chick forever, although it might be healthy to take up the 'Fuck women!' attitude for now.

I've been there. Several/many times ^^.

[kaytie]

ok...i'm not one to usually do this, but here it goes

ok, well today i have officially been single for 2 months and i'm having so much fun being able to just go out with friends or just hang out with a guy. but then last night i was at a friends house and there was a guy there that i have met like one other time and he's really kinda cute and we hit it off real good. he's really sweet and we just sat outside and talked the whole night. it was really kinda cool. but there was another guy there that i have known since like 6th grade and he's one of my best friends and he is literally in love with me. and swears that we will get married. well anyways he was sitting there looking at me and this other guy and i felt really bad cause i kinda know what was going there his head. so i just don't know if i should try to save the friendship or see were this other guy takes me. or try to make both were and if so how? uhhhhhhh i just don't know what to do because i don't want to get hurt again but i don't want to hurt my friend!

[Fidel]

Kaytie do you like that friend in a romantic way?

Eventually, this friend needs to get over the fact that you do, in fact, like other boys. Wow, what a shocker. The longer he realizes, the worse it's gonna hurt. If you don't see any relationship with him anytime in the future, then why do you have to be so sneaky with trying to get a guy. It might seem rude but he's gotta deal with it.

[pimptress]

ooh good advice fidely...

kaytie.. thats good that you don't want to hurt your friends feelings.. but he shouldn't stop being friends with you simply because you like other guys.. if he does then hes not worth your time.. just tell him straight up "listen.. me and you could never work. i just don't see you like that." i had to do that to my best friend once.. he was like "ok" a little hurt but now he has a girlfriend...guys will move on...

but if you like the friend.. i honestly wouldn't date him.. afterwards when you break up.. then its just weird because not only are you still best friends because you know everything about each other.. but you're still "ex" so you might have a hard time telling him about a new guy or vice versus..

and thank you very much jay for the compliment.. you're such a sweetheart.. i'll find somebody eventually.. i'm not really in much of a hurry.. guys are kinda immature right now

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

awww casey!! i make your heart smile? yay!! :D *is happy* i wish i could make other ppl's heart smile too. instead, i destroy hearts with my words. :(

[pimptress]

you make my feet smile joann

and you make robin's boobies smile..

and her little man

[Jay]

Kaytie...I have a friend that I have liked ever since I met her like 4 years ago and she knows it. I would marry her if she would let me. But, it's something we've been over before, and one time she just had to be really blunt with me and let me have it. Yeah, it sucked, but I got over it, and we're still friends to this day.

Tell your friend the brutal, honest truth. You may end up hurting him now, but you'll be better for it in the long run.

[Whitney]

Originally posted by Fidel
If you guys think this is bad, Agnew is even worse. There are gonna be so many hoes next year. My friend Dan and Anthony, two eighth graders, were talking about them. They said girls giving head and having sex was daily and that even Anthony had gotten head. That totally sickened me out.


I KNOW!!! I know this little girl that is in 7th or 8th grade...(cant remember) but she has had sex with 4 guys! 4 GUYS AND SHE IS ONLY IN MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! WTF?!??!!

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

its pretty uh sick...c'mon at least wait till the guys voice changes or something. you knoe? its like they havent even hit puberty yet and they are sexing....oh dear tsk tsk.

[Fidel]

Originally posted by Whitney
I KNOW!!! I know this little girl that is in 7th or 8th grade...(cant remember) but she has had sex with 4 guys! 4 GUYS AND SHE IS ONLY IN MIDDLE SCHOOL!!! WTF?!??!!

What was this girl's name? Haha, j/k.

[Nyeh]

dont forget that i humped you

[Nyeh]

amber was like "wtf"

[casey]

i dont really have many problems right now. well, right now i am thinking about the playing test i have tommorrow morning and the physics test shortly after but that's it. and i dont really care.. sometimes i start thinking how i havent had a boyfriend since last may.. but im really bad with b/f's.. its funny. i get tired of boyfriends, but the guys i date or like-- get tired of me.. heh. but ive started to do something new now.. where i just wait things out and see how i like the person before i say/do anything dumb.. and thats helped me decide that i dont like the kid i thought i did.

the other day me and wendy were thinking about all that has happened in the year. me, her, cara, and halley met and became best friends. had some good times. then halley moved to new mexico and changed big time. so it was me cara and wendy. then cara slowly began to spend more time with her friends from crandall. we still hung out, but every once in a while she'd be with them. now she pretty much stays out all weekend with them.. me and wendy now realize everyone is changing and its pretty much just me and her left. cara would rather run around in a drunken stupor than go places with us. we dont really have anything to talk about anyways with her anymore except the stories of her kissing a boy in a barn or the hilarious things she did. -rolls eyes- but im glad its just me and wendy cause three's a crowd.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

oh casey...
my love.
you still have ME!!!! :D hahah
sounds like your bothered w/ ppl changing...
miss casey, i believe you knoe you can IM me anytime ya want and talk to me. it doesnt matter if its a stupid problem. for all i care...it could be something like. "i cant find the remote control" it really doesnt matter...i like to listen to others. it makes me feel special too. you can IM me poems too cuz i like your other one. it was awesome!! im proud of ya for making it up...especially in under 10 mins. thats like wowzers. yay for casey. so casey.... aycheewawa21 is my s/n. if you want to call me...IM me and ask me for my #. you can call me in the middle of the night if you have a nightmare too. cuz nightmares are no fun. and ill probably be awake. and ill wake up fidel, too. and then you can come over. and we can have a BIG sleepover. wahoooooo. wow...im going crazy here. im suppose to be doing my homework. ahhh buy.

[casey]

aww thanks joann! that was really sweet :D i'll remember that. and we can have a big sleepover and maybe one day i will meet the secret twin! :eek: you are the greatest dinosaur turtle that has ever roamed the earth.

[pimptress]

hm sunday

i feel like crap to say the least. i'm getting sick and district is thursday and friday. normally i wouldn't be so worried but being the only varsity 800 meter runner (well robin might run it..) and being the fastest miler.. its my job to lead the team. and it sucks.

i have a major english project that i should do... i've already gotten two 65's for a test grade because i was too tired from track to do my note cards... i don't really care.. i've gotten to the point where its like "sleep.. please just let me sleep."

the only thing that keeps me going is now that i have freedom.. i can drive. and my best friend and i are becoming closer again. i missed her. i'm not as depressed as i used to be. i dunno. i'm kinda blah right now. thats what coffee does to ya. makes me sleepy and all.

i just wrote a poem. its gay as heck. oh well.

pooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

[Big J]

Monday...

School today sucked, like normal. I'm not going to radio tomorrow so that I can take my car up to the shop immediately after school, I have an oil leak I can't track down somewhere in my engine, I've gone through an entire quart of oil in less than a week, and I'm running almost dry now, I'm just hoping that I can keep enough in there to get it to the shop. I think it's probably the oil sending unit, but who knows. I couldn't find where the leak is coming from, because it's hitting the ground in about five places.

Anyway... I'm really tired of school. I just finished an epic poem that is due in English tomorrow, had to be at least 100 lines, minimum. Mine ended up being 105, and it took me like two hours to write it. I fucking hate long poetry, I can deal with the shorter 10 to 20 line stuff but it when comes to epics, I just suck. If anyone wants to read it and make fun of it (I know I would if I didn't write it) just ask on AIM. :P

[casey]

today wasnt really too bad. got 4th chair for my violin playing test.. i was 2nd before. that kinda sucked but i'm not going to worry myself sick like the 1st chair guy who got placed 5th chair this time.. and went home during orchestra cause he didn't feel good.

i really enjoy listening to people's conversations and just watching the odd things they do. for instance, the big girl who would stand with one foot infront of the other and looked like she wanted to surf.. all because it was suppossed to help her "time of the month" -shakes head- people are so weird... how is that funny surf walk going to help at all? keep the flow balanced? -shakes head again-

im really tired. i feel like starbucks tommorrow morning :D

[SexySoprano4]

I had a good day for the first time in a VERY long time..and nothing really happened..i've slept a total of 4 hours in the past 2 days..fun stuff! I went to a baseball game..we won, Then i went to a hockey game..and we won again! so..it's been a good day..:)

[Jay]

Monday...

I'm way tired, had a test and a quiz today, was busy all day, and spent the last 3 hours of my day preparing a dance so I can be a drag queen in our fundraiser tomorrow...and in 14 hours I'm going to be wearing a mini-skirt...yay for being Jay.

[Jared]

04-08-03
1:30 am

My back yard has GOT to be one of mesquites coolest hangouts. SO many memories. I think there must have been at least 300 different people back there in the last 5 years.. Heated up the spa tonight and had some friends over. It was great. The hot tub was at 105ƒ, and the whole pool and yard was bitch black. I used to be embarrased to swim without a shirt on in recent years, but due to a sudden muscle increase, as well as an increase in confidence and sexyness, its no longer a problem.. I never realised how good it feels to walk around half naked.. Anyways, I had a sno-kone today from that place in teh parking lot on south galloway. I swear to god, it is THE BEST SNO-CONE EVER. I will buy ANYONE who wants one a sno-cone from there to prove it if nesseceary.. My day was kinda slow until then, but something about the sno-cone cheered me RIGHT up. I mean, i was thinking about how i would describe it on the journal as soon as i took a bite. But, since i went swimming, the thoughts arent quite as fresh on my mind as I would have liked... Its all good.

[Staci]

I have never wrote my happenings/feelings down before...but I will try my best.

My weekend:
Friday I had to be up by 5 am because I was leaving for Atlanta, Ga. at 6 am. So I actually left on time and made it to Altanta on time, that was a first b/c I am never on time anywhere. I spent most of the day taking care of work and getting thing finshed up in Atlanta before I left.

Saturday I again had to be up early. Woke up at 5:30 am and quickly got ready b/c I have to catch a ride from Atlanta, Georgia to Talladega, Alabama. Well I got to Talladega around 8 am and had a nice breakfast at the waffle house. Well that was the only calming thing that I did the whole day! I had to be up at the race track in Talladega by 9am, and again made it on time! :) There was a lot of mud up there b/c it had been raining all night. I was unsure if there would even be a race b/c it was still raining when I got there, and continued to rain until noon. So the track was dried and the Winston Cup cars went out for their first, b/c the original first on got rained out, and last practice b/c sundays race. The practice ran over in time ao we had to rescheadule apperances for drivers due to time mess ups. Finally the Busch race was ready to go. The weather was clear and looked good. There was only one major wreck, which sent a driver to the local hospital for evaluation. But he turned out to be ok. So the race went normal like most Busch races do, until the end. There was a wreck with 3 laps to go so they took the caution flag and finished under caution. The driver who took the caution in first alomost didnt get the win b/c he ran out of gas on the front stretch, he got enough jucie out of it to make it to turn one, but he won. foup different drivers ran out of gas in the end. And really messes up the cars so I fell for the crew that have to take on the cars when they go back to the shop. So yeah I finally got out of the infield area around 11 that night and found a close hotel to stay in b/c the talladega infield is not a safe place to stay at all!

Sunday, I didnt have to wake up untill 8 b/c I didnt have to do any traveling b/c I was already at the track! Everything went noraml except for the threat of rain hovering over our heads. The team did extreamly well, I was very happy. The only problems we had were the we had to switch to a different frecency on our radios b/c of static, the static died down but it was still bad and I could bearly hear anyone. The other problem was that the air dam got messed up in an early accident, so we made lots and lots of pit stops and got that fixed. But in all it was a very good race and we got an awsome finish! The car looked like it just came from Bristol, not talladega. But, oh well. So I stayed the night in the hotel again but didnt get there until midnight.

Monday I had to wake up at freaking 3 am so I could leave by 4 am!! I hate mornings!!! I ws very tired and went straight home to go to bed, I didnt go to school monday, i am really badly burnt b/c I didnt bring any sun screen. So I have a bad sun burn and didnt feel like going to school.

Tuesday, thats today. My burn still hurts very badly!! I went to school today, that sucks! And I also have to go and meet some guy today in Richardson b/c he is going to take my senior pictures. I dont know who he is but he knows my mom, so thats ok. I am just worried b/c they are going to look bad with this burn that I have right now. I guess I can always look at them and remember to bring sun screen next time. lol! Well thats all for now, i'm tired.

[casey]

Tuesday-
My head aches, my throat and nose are stuffed, and I can't think straight. Starbucks didn't make me feel any better. :( It usually perks me right up and I'm hyper. I was a little in 1st, but it wore down fast and so in 2nd I couldn't concentrate and so I'm glad we did our work in groups-- I couldn't think straight and was confusing things. I really don't want to go to rehearsal tonight for jesus christ superstar, but I have to. And I have to be able to sing by Sunday. I feel like making a new mix CD after school and I want to paint tonight.

[graeme]

Originally posted by Staci
I have never wrote my happenings/feelings down before...but I will try my best.

My weekend:
Friday I had to be up by 5 am because I was leaving for Atlanta, Ga. at 6 am. So I actually left on time and made it to Altanta on time, that was a first b/c I am never on time anywhere. I spent most of the day taking care of work and getting thing finshed up in Atlanta before I left.

Saturday I again had to be up early. Woke up at 5:30 am and quickly got ready b/c I have to catch a ride from Atlanta, Georgia to Talladega, Alabama. Well I got to Talladega around 8 am and had a nice breakfast at the waffle house. Well that was the only calming thing that I did the whole day! I had to be up at the race track in Talladega by 9am, and again made it on time! :) There was a lot of mud up there b/c it had been raining all night. I was unsure if there would even be a race b/c it was still raining when I got there, and continued to rain until noon. So the track was dried and the Winston Cup cars went out for their first, b/c the original first on got rained out, and last practice b/c sundays race. The practice ran over in time ao we had to rescheadule apperances for drivers due to time mess ups. Finally the Busch race was ready to go. The weather was clear and looked good. There was only one major wreck, which sent a driver to the local hospital for evaluation. But he turned out to be ok. So the race went normal like most Busch races do, until the end. There was a wreck with 3 laps to go so they took the caution flag and finished under caution. The driver who took the caution in first alomost didnt get the win b/c he ran out of gas on the front stretch, he got enough jucie out of it to make it to turn one, but he won. foup different drivers ran out of gas in the end. And really messes up the cars so I fell for the crew that have to take on the cars when they go back to the shop. So yeah I finally got out of the infield area around 11 that night and found a close hotel to stay in b/c the talladega infield is not a safe place to stay at all!

Sunday, I didnt have to wake up untill 8 b/c I didnt have to do any traveling b/c I was already at the track! Everything went noraml except for the threat of rain hovering over our heads. The team did extreamly well, I was very happy. The only problems we had were the we had to switch to a different frecency on our radios b/c of static, the static died down but it was still bad and I could bearly hear anyone. The other problem was that the air dam got messed up in an early accident, so we made lots and lots of pit stops and got that fixed. But in all it was a very good race and we got an awsome finish! The car looked like it just came from Bristol, not talladega. But, oh well. So I stayed the night in the hotel again but didnt get there until midnight.

Monday I had to wake up at freaking 3 am so I could leave by 4 am!! I hate mornings!!! I ws very tired and went straight home to go to bed, I didnt go to school monday, i am really badly burnt b/c I didnt bring any sun screen. So I have a bad sun burn and didnt feel like going to school.

Tuesday, thats today. My burn still hurts very badly!! I went to school today, that sucks! And I also have to go and meet some guy today in Richardson b/c he is going to take my senior pictures. I dont know who he is but he knows my mom, so thats ok. I am just worried b/c they are going to look bad with this burn that I have right now. I guess I can always look at them and remember to bring sun screen next time. lol! Well thats all for now, i'm tired.


redneck

[kaytie]

Hey everyone thanks for the advice. and the new guy seems great so i'm pursueing(sp?) that.

anyways, sunday night when i got home one of my best friends was here and she was crying so i asked my mom what happened. my mom told me that her brother had been in a car wreck. these are people that i have grown up w/ and known my whole life. and this family has been through so much and really didn't deserve something like this. anyways, he was w/ some friends fishing at cedar creek and went to go to the store, well he lost control of the car and went in the other lane and hit a truck head on. he was thrown out the passenger window and died instantly. it's just not fair what my friend has gone through and she is only 16. on the 18th of this month it will be six years since her dad has died. it just isn't right. i feel horrible for her and don't know what to do.

[casey]

aw kaytie, im so sorry about your friend's brother :( that's horrible that she has been through so much. i'll keep their family in my prayers.

[kaytie]

thanks...they can use all the prayers they can get...

[<3]

Ok guys, here goes another problem yall can help with!! Ohh isn't it exciting!

I am going out with this guy.....(beginning of every pointless problem I know!) well I went out with him in 8th grade ALL year and we finally broke up 2 weeks before the end because of something stupid that was missunderstood. Then he went out with some other girl, then broke up with her for me 3 weeks into summer. We went out untill the end of the 2nd six weeks of school then broke up because high school was getting to us both. For a long time we didn't talk, but then around Christmas we started talking again as friends. That worked out fine for a while, then he started going out with this other girl and he said he couldn't lie anymore, he said we were meant to be and that by going out with other girls he was only being untrue to himself and to me, so he told her he had to break up with her because he loved me. Now we are going out, but it's not the same anymore and I find myself avoiding him for no reason, I LOVE to be around him, don't get me wrong, but I just got so used to only being his friend that I don't like doing grilfriend/boyfriend things anymore. When he tries to kiss me, I feel like I'm obligated to kiss him back. I know that is so wrong, but I love him, I really do, I just feel like we were only meant to be friends maybe. Now I have already started another relationship with him that he thinks will last forever, so what can I really do now? I forgot to mention, we almost hooked up around Christmas but it was too weird and he felt like I blew him off, this time I swore it would be different so if I tell him that I don't feel the same anymore he will think I am doing the same thing again and it will break his heart. He is a great guy, and he treats me like a queen, I mean, I have no complaints, but I just don't feel the same way about him I used to and theres nothing I can do about it! Help....Please!!

[graeme]

Originally posted by Skittles
Ok guys, here goes another problem yall can help with!! Ohh isn't it exciting!

I am going out with this guy.....(beginning of every pointless problem I know!) well I went out with him in 8th grade ALL year and we finally broke up 2 weeks before the end because of something stupid that was missunderstood. Then he went out with some other girl, then broke up with her for me 3 weeks into summer. We went out untill the end of the 2nd six weeks of school then broke up because high school was getting to us both. For a long time we didn't talk, but then around Christmas we started talking again as friends. That worked out fine for a while, then he started going out with this other girl and he said he couldn't lie anymore, he said we were meant to be and that by going out with other girls he was only being untrue to himself and to me, so he told her he had to break up with her because he loved me. Now we are going out, but it's not the same anymore and I find myself avoiding him for no reason, I LOVE to be around him, don't get me wrong, but I just got so used to only being his friend that I don't like doing grilfriend/boyfriend things anymore. When he tries to kiss me, I feel like I'm obligated to kiss him back. I know that is so wrong, but I love him, I really do, I just feel like we were only meant to be friends maybe. Now I have already started another relationship with him that he thinks will last forever, so what can I really do now? I forgot to mention, we almost hooked up around Christmas but it was too weird and he felt like I blew him off, this time I swore it would be different so if I tell him that I don't feel the same anymore he will think I am doing the same thing again and it will break his heart. He is a great guy, and he treats me like a queen, I mean, I have no complaints, but I just don't feel the same way about him I used to and theres nothing I can do about it! Help....Please!!

dont worry soon you will rule Middle school relationships infact you will rule freshman and sophmore relationships irrelavant and you will meet a nice guy so don't worry you still got HIGH SCHOOL in front of you, i know thats not saying much to you but when i look back on high school IT GODDAMN SHAPED ME !!!

[Big J]

Shit I hope high school didn't shape me, high school fucking sucked for me. :P

[graeme]

i know... it sucked for me too... but the reality is it does shape you it helps you look at the real world, and you can somewhat know who the people are that are trying to hurt you and the people who wanna help you... wait till college... its only been two semsters for me now.. but WOW, college people suck ass!

[Big J]

Heh, yea, but don't you go to A&M? I'm going to be at a TINY school, only 1,300 undergraduates, so hopefully it won't be as bad, since there are less people and such. And yea I guess you have a point, it really does help shape the way you see some things, heh.

[graeme]

no, i go to a small school with about 3000 students regardless it all sucks... a bigger school would be better though. My freind goes to SWT and i find that there are nicer people there and at most larger schools!

[Big J]

Well shit. :P

[<3]

Middle school? I am in high school, and that is why we brole up @ the beginning of the year, because we were headed in different directions.But he said that now he knows he only wants me, but I dont just want him, I wanna explore naw mean! I am only a freshman, theres gonna be LOTS of other guys! So, what should I do?

[graeme]

you just answerd the question... forget about him and date a senior LOL

[<3]

Lol...you're a lot of help, I could have(and did) think of that on my own!! If it was that easy I would have dumped him already! Come on you are a guy, if you really loved a girl and she was feeling how I am how would you prefer to tell you?

[graeme]

yes.... but... the problem isnt what you think it is... your a freshman by no means should you have a guy problem right now, not only is it a waste of time but what are you like 15... damn you have som much time to fiqure things out!! dont rush yourself!

[<3]

I realize that, but I am playing with his "emotions" while I figure things out. Even though we are young and it's a small problem we probably wont be thinking about in 10 years, I don't want to hurt him, we went out for like a year 1/2 which is long for me!

[graeme]

your still young... you were super young back then... your not mature enough to handle this situation and he isnt mature enough to take it as a big emotional heartbreak so dont worry!

[<3]

Originally posted by graeme
yes.... but... the problem isnt what you think it is...
What is it?? You mean you know?!?LoL

[graeme]

yes i am all knowing GRAEME bow to my greatness!

[<3]

*STANDS REBELLIOUSLY* prove it!

[graeme]

im older than you and i can poke your eye out!!

[<3]

hehe...true...*bows slightly*

[graeme]

*yells security... you dissapear... hears a door slam and a car peel out*

[<3]

Bow the almighty graeme is God of all!!!!!







hehehehehehe*kills*heheheheheheh

[Jay]

Originally posted by graeme
My freind goes to SWT and i find that there are nicer people there and at most larger schools!

I went to SWT for a year. The people are nice, and the girls are VERY pretty.

[<3]

Well anyways, back to the journal part, and the helping of problems!!

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

ok i'm bringing this back. yay.

april 12,2003
today i have realized i am very lucky to be who i am. all my friends have made me feel so special and its unbelievable. i appreciate every little thing my friends have done for me. sometimes i think some of my friends dont really like me. why i think this? idk i just do.and i always find out i am wrong by the stuff my friends say and do to me. they always suprise me and make me happy when im down. today...this one girl that i used to hang out w/ alot and talk to last year...we sorda lost touch this year, and i always thought that she never really liked me but today she IMed me outta the blue and we started talking again. she said the most nicest things to me and i was so suprised by the things she said. and that just made my day. i just want to return what my friends have done to me and start being nice to people. my goal: to make someone's day. yay. im bored and i thought i would type this up.haha *shakes head* im a loser! yay. hah thats about it. adios senor/itas. -joann.

[casey]

aw joann you made my day before.. when you replied to my journal! that made me feel really good :D

[Big J]

Yea Joann, we're all your friends. You don't think I'll waste my gas on just ANYONE, do you? :P

[.the bitch.]

you would.

[Big J]

No I wouldn't, I won't drive you around. :P

[.the bitch.]

yeah you would

[Big J]

No I wouldn't.

[.the bitch.]

liar...i seem to recall a certain someone coming over...

[Big J]

Yea, with Devin, Blair, Kris, and Kerry. I didn't even know where we were, you can ask Devin. I was like, "What are we doing?" "Visiting Amber." "Oh, this is where she lives?" :P

[.the bitch.]

fine jeff i dont <3 you anymore

[Big J]

You never did. :P

[.the bitch.]

not in a romantic way but i still love you

[Big J]

Yea yea, you want me. :P

[.the bitch.]

....shut up jeff.

[Big J]

Abs ... :D

[.the bitch.]

you know you sweat my abs

[Big J]

Yea especially after you demanded I rub them. :P

[.the bitch.]

do not lie jeff...i didnt DEMAND...youre just angry cause uh...you couldnt touch my ass which is as hard as a rock...cause im swoll

[Big J]

I could have very easily touched your ass when I was stealing you from Devin, but I'm too much of a gentleman. :)

[.the bitch.]

stealing me??

[Big J]

Yea, remember when I like put my arm around you & told Devin, "Hey dude, I'm going to steal Amber from you." and he was like "What?" "Nevermind..." :P

[.the bitch.]

oh yeah

[casey]

-falls over and dies- JOURNALS PLEASE.

i have a big performance tommorrow morning and right now im so pissed i just want to scream my head off and then break some windows or something.

tonight was pretty good. went out to omid's land and me, tracy, terrie, dani, and sohaila ran around looking for something fun to do while omid luke and austin made a huge fire.. i sat on a wasp or something when we stole omid's ranger [not a ford ranger.. a polaris] and me, terrie, and dani all got in the back. we got ready to go mud wrestling but me and dani had to leave since we both have to be up early tommorrow. the mud pit looked fun, though. :(

i went and bought a camera for tommorrow's show.. and then i come home and my sister had come home and took the curling iron. i needed that bitch to flip out my hair tommorrow! that really pisses me off. the one day i need it..... i could use the little skinny curling irons but that would make my hair look dumb. this pisses me off and makes me start to NOT want to be the sister who looks out for her older sister. im starting to think "oh well.. if she gets in trouble its her own fault..." well i've always THOUGHT that, just always warned her of when my dad would be home, so she knew not to let her bf spend the night.. i found a deadAIM logged conversation she had with someone which talked about getting high and stuff.. i was so disappointed in her. she takes all my stuff, messes it all up, wrinkles up stuff i just ironed... and she expects me to help her funky self out. not anymore. i'm pissed at her. she gets away with all this stuff.. if i was mean, i would have turned her secrets over to my dad a long time ago and gotten her truck and she'd have the funky grand am. but i was nice. but now, she can find her own way out of these messes.

[pimptress]

well this weekend has been awesome for me.. definately makes up for my week of which i will not discuss.. due to its homosexually inclined problem

ok well last night i had district... 12-5A varstiy track district.. and to say the least.. i frikin dominated the 800m. yes thats right.. this right here *points to herself* is the district champ in the 800m dash... *bows* no no roses or money.. (note: this is all sarcasm.. but i really did win) and to make it even better.. my mom flew in my favorite cousin from florida to come and hang out with me at my party! it was pretty sweet.. *looks at her gold medal* so now i will go to regionals... i beat the 2nd place girl by atleast 50meters.. all of my hard work has paid off

and then tonight.. i had my party.. it was soo much fun... all of my friends are crazy and we had this awesome time.. we had a water balloon fight and all kinds of good stuff.. ya you can say that we're a little old to be doing that.. but it was soo much fun.. and we just ate chic fil a (we had it catered in) and just had the coolest time ever.. *dances* so ya i'm definately loving this weekend... totally makes up for my crappy week.. well i'm gunna stop there..

much love

me

ps this party was up there with my 4-20 party.. haha good times good times

[EyezOfHazelFire]

Well...Remember what I said about The Whole "Travis" problem I was having well...He & Lindsay are back together! And EVERYDAY at school he tells me "I know I made the wrong choice, and I still love you" and then say "I know you still want me" AND yes I still want him but it is wrong for him to cheat on his girlfriend but she did the same thing to me and it is sooo tempting!!! I want to beat her ass but going and "doing stuff" with him and her not knowing would makes me feel so good (In an evil way)!!

[Whitney]

Originally posted by graeme
you just answerd the question... forget about him and date a senior LOL


cause when i date guys ur age u shit in ur pants...shut up stupid



so anyways...this weekend kinda sucked me and Joe fought cause he found out i lied to him :(...thats the worst thing EVER to do..one of OUR good friend decieded to tell me that he has all these feelings for me and told me that he just wanted to kiss me and i was like WHAT? and he was like "if it leads to anything more i wont tell..." wait wait wait ..1st of all u are one of Joes friends and u r trying to get with me and 2nd of all ur trying to come in between something u know i cherish more than anything! HELL NAW! so ya...i hate him now! LoL but in the past we were kinda more than friends but no one knew.. and for the past 6 months i have been telling joe that i NEVER had anything more than a friendship with him and then i finally told him the truth which made him mad cause i had lied to him about it for so long...but i mean its not the biggest deal ever but i know how he feels cause i have been there b4 when he lied to me so :(...then my ass has been hurting! the doctor was closed today so my mom had to clean out my wound and it HURT LIKE A BITCH!! argh! and i still have to go EVERYDAY until the puss stops commin out! OMG im going to die...but ya EXCITING HUH!?

[Big J]

Oh, okay. :rolleyes: In THAT case....

:P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P :P

[Big J]

Anyway...

April 13th...

Was going to go to a movie with a girl today, but for some reason she ended up not getting online and not answering her phone or text messages at all today... I love how whenever I make plans with someone they seem to completely disappear off the face of the Earth the day of those plans.

I'm really getting tired of being avoided by people who say yes just because they don't want to say no to me. I mean god, if someone doesn't want to hang out with me or whatever they should just fucking say no. Eh, whatever. So yea I sat around the house all day doing absolutely nothing. No schoolwork to worry about since GPAs and ranks are frozen as of this past Friday, so hey...

[graeme]

i woke up

ate

nap

ate

nap

shower

ate

thats bout it so far

[Whitney]

lazy ass...were u in Mesquite this weekend? I could have swore i saw u...:rolleyes:

[graeme]

nope... i stayed here, i had work to do

[Magita]

My mother is so annoying. -_-

[SexySoprano4]

my day...hmmm....
woke up

went to church

slept through church

went home

took a nap

got on the computer

ate food

and the rest is history...I have such the interesting life. :rolleyes:

[Jay]

Was that the same night y'all drove to Arlington? Kerry called me and was like, "hey man, we're in Arlington", and I was like "uh..I'm in Waco, sorry".

Hmm...I think that may have been last night.


Originally posted by Blue Bird
Yea, with Devin, Blair, Kris, and Kerry. I didn't even know where we were, you can ask Devin. I was like, "What are we doing?" "Visiting Amber." "Oh, this is where she lives?" :P

[Big J]

I didn't go to Arlington, hehe.

[pimptress]

april 14

well today was fun. i had to work out with the 2 fastest varsity guys in the district today because i'm going to regionals. it was not cool. i was running what the varsity guys used to run. not cool. the jv guy that came to keep me on pace ended up losing his breakfast and not keeping up. it was not cool at all especially since i ate something last night that was really really bad and my stomach was about to jump out of me and kill me.. but the rest of my day was pretty good. me and joann went to starbucks after school. it was fun

last night i got in a huge fight with my parents.. lasted for about 2 1/2 hours... i ended up getting out of my grounding (they took my car away) and now i can do whatever i want as long as my room is clean. thats it. all i have to do is keep my room clean and i can do WHATEVER I WANT! its pretty sweet. well i'm gunna go wash my car now. if you want your car to be washed for eh.. 5 dollars? (there might be a discount) just call my house line and i will hook you up. later

oh and my favorite cousin left yesterday.. it was really sad :(

edit: i have no idea why stomach is underlined.. it just is...

[Jay]

I had a guy lose his lunch next to me yesterday. I almost lost mine when I heard the noise, so I'm with ya there Steph.

[pimptress]

ya.. it was really gross.. we have all these throw up stains all over the field

most of them are from cross country

chester the molester really needs to clean them up instead of riding around on his little gator.. i swear the man never walks..

[Whitney]

haha chester the molester scares me sometimes... :(

[pimptress]

he used to get mad at me because i'd go into the stadium to get a drink of water or to watch the band in the morning before cross country practice...

i'm going to slash his tires one day.. make that stupid man work

he probably spends half of the stadium's funds on gas for his gator.. grrr

edit: i have no idea why tires is underlined..

[Whitney]

4-15

yeah...2day wasn't so bad! My "wound" feels much much better! :D so yay! but i still have to go to the doctor so they can clean it and "Dress" it..AGH! but oh well...Today in Clinical Rotation we had to make paper bridges that had to be 4 ft long and my group got last, i was saddened! but oh well...it was all about sum leadership thing (which i didn't get how that had anything to do with Leadership...whatever?!) we had to lift weights today in volleyball, MAN i hate lifting weights, thats like my LEAST favorite thing 2 do in the world! it sucks major butt hole, but whatever makes me better, right? UGH!!! Oh then i found out that Joe had lied to me about something (not a big deal) but it was like the same thing HE GOT MAD AT ME 4! WTF? stupid little boys...but other than that it was okay day...dreading tomorrow cause its CONDITIONING DAY in volleyball! O YAY!?

[pimptress]

today was pretty awesome for me...

we had to run 4.5 mile.. but coach said that it should take us an hour.. thats really slow (well with stretching and stuff.. so it was really easy seeing as it usually takes us around 35 minutes to run it) so when we had 1.5 miles left.. me and morgan were crossing a creek.. and he jumped first.. made it.. so i jumped.. well my left foot landed in the water and when i came out my shoe stayed in the mud and sunk to the bottom of the creek.. it filled with algae on its way down.. so i screamed "MORGAN!" and he came back to help me get my shoe out.. well it took us a second to find it because the only thing that was sticking out was the very tip of my shoe lace.. just bobbing at the top of the water.. so he got it out and it was DISGUSTING! so he washed it out for me and we jogged the rest of the way back.. well that was fun

the rest of my day went as usual.. had 4th period off and i just did whatever.. i just heard some bad news about my friend but hes not talking.. i wanna do something but the little turd won't let me.. hopefully he'll let me help him like he helped me.. i dunno..

i'm dreading tomorrow. its going to be a killer workout but i get out of second period for a STARS program thing.. yay..

whitney... i saw you yesterday...

[Whitney]

u saw meeee? where? school...i see ya all the time

[casey]

there used to be a janitor at my middle school who we called chester the molester. maybe its the same guy.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

gee, steph...if you need help with the problem your friend has just ask me for help. muwahhahaha. you fell for it.
*ahem*
score is...
1 for your "friend" and
0 for you.

:D you knoe i still love ya...*cough* ya right *cough*

[graeme]

Originally posted by pimptress
april 14

well today was fun. i had to work out with the 2 fastest varsity guys in the district today because i'm going to regionals. it was not cool. i was running what the varsity guys used to run. not cool. the jv guy that came to keep me on pace ended up losing his breakfast and not keeping up. it was not cool at all especially since i ate something last night that was really really bad and my stomach was about to jump out of me and kill me.. but the rest of my day was pretty good. me and joann went to starbucks after school. it was fun

last night i got in a huge fight with my parents.. lasted for about 2 1/2 hours... i ended up getting out of my grounding (they took my car away) and now i can do whatever i want as long as my room is clean. thats it. all i have to do is keep my room clean and i can do WHATEVER I WANT! its pretty sweet. well i'm gunna go wash my car now. if you want your car to be washed for eh.. 5 dollars? (there might be a discount) just call my house line and i will hook you up. later

oh and my favorite cousin left yesterday.. it was really sad :(

edit: i have no idea why stomach is underlined.. it just is...


this proves guys are superior over women

[Nyeh]

april 15th


yeah i got broken up with...

[P a t r i c k]

Pfft, loser
I got alot of sleep today.

[Jay]

Originally posted by casey
there used to be a janitor at my middle school who we called chester the molester. maybe its the same guy.

You went to Kimbrough, huh?

That guy creeped me out.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

april 15, 2003
life could be ALOT better.
the end.

[kaytie]

we have a coach at our school that is sometimes called chester chester the child molester!! he's crazy!

[janice]

i hated him sooooo frickin much!!

ok, time for me to do some complaining...

so about 3 weeks ago, i was having some major family problems. mostly about me deciding that i was getting really burnt out on school, and that i was going to take the rest of this semester off. my dad had started nagging me about getting a full-time job, since i was "throwing my life away to sit around with my loser friends". after coming home one night after a couple of job interviews and grabbing some tacos at jack in the box, my dad decides to start griping at me again. he had been drinking, so i decided to just keep my mouth shut, and to say as little as humanly possible. this did not go over well, and i ended up calling him and asshole under my breath. big mistake. he pushed me down, called me a bitch, and told me to leave his house and not to come back. so i grab my keys and leave. as im driving off, he takes his beer bottle, and breaks my passenger side back window. im now living at my grandma's house in combine, and havent spoken to him since.
the woman (my grandma) drives me crazy. i seriously think that she thinks im turning anorexic or something. (if you know me, you know that im far from anorexic.) and it's all because i dont want to eat her nasty food. the woman cannot cook. all this crap about how grandmothers can cook so well is a bunch of bologna.

ok, i think im done venting for now. :)

[.the bitch.]

devin especially has boners when he thinks of the fat girl in my spanish class who picks her fat up when she sits down and then she lays it over her belt.

[Big J]

... Dude I think I know that girl. Is it Laura Miller or something like that?

[.the bitch.]

yes!!!
she dresses all punk like and stuff right?

dude she wears tight jeans and her ass is shaped FUNKY

[Big J]

Yea, she's in my debate class. *shudders* I hate that bitch, not only is she fat, but she is also a complete and total idiot.

[.the bitch.]

i dont hate her...i think she should dress like a fta kid...you know..a moo-moo...but i do think she asks too many questions

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

april 16,2003
i just took a nap, and im still sleepy. the shot in my arm hurts and i have volleyball practice tomorrow and its gonna hurt more then. i think i ate something bad cuz my stomach hurts a lot. today my friends have made my day sooo much. like stephanie! she went out of her way to go print me the map i left at home...she had to take time outta her study hall to walk across the street to another teachers room to ask him if she could use his computer so she could print something while he was teaching. little things like that have made my day a lot better. yay for friends. i dont knoe what i would do w/ out them. and today i went out of my way for another friend and i wanna start doing that more. yay. the end. -joann.

[pimptress]

um lets see..

worked out with the boys again today.. (yes graeme in athletics.. boys are superior.. but lets see how well you run when you're on your period) we did this thing called 30-30s.. sucks big time.. i ran a 200 (half a lap) in 35 seconds.. rested for 30 seconds.. and then ran again.. i did this 4 times.. rested for about 5 minutes and did it again.. it was killer.. again the guy that was running with me lost his breakfast.. except this was somebody else

school was fun... i shoepolished my friends car (he wanted us to) during 4th period.. and i have no homework... i only have one class period tomorrow and in that we're doing a carousel (lots of fun) so i'm excited..

hehe joann.. you know i don't mind doin stuff for ya.. long john silvers.. subway (NO MEAT ON FRIDAYS!! ARE YOU CATHOLIC??) you know i'll always take care of you babes..

and yes chester the molester is the guy from kimbrough.. i wanna slash his tires soo bad

[Aaron]

"how well you run when you're on your period"ahh shutup

[Whitney]

Originally posted by pimptress

i ran a 200 (half a lap) in 35 seconds.. rested for 30 seconds.. and then ran again.. i did this 4 times.. rested for about 5 minutes and did it again.. it was killer..


ya we had to run 10 of those the other week...then we had to run 12 100's! i about died :( im NOT IN FREAKING TRACK DAMNIT!!!


today was a pretty good day tho...Joe and all his little friends did the whole "switch with the black people clothes" day where the white guys wore the black guys clothes and the black guys wore the white guys! they did it last year but they did better this year...the black guys looked more preppy and the white guys looked a lot better than the 02 guys...cause 04 ROCKS! muwahahaha...jk

but 4 real...i give up on friends i have like 3 friends left?! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS HAS TURNED GAY!!!! no seriously...my last 3 best friends have become gay! and i always said that i wouldn't not be friends with sum1 if they were gay, but omg i can't stand it cause they don't admit to it, they LIE to my face and thats what kills me cause i have to hear from their "partners" and i find letters and stuff that r saying shit! i just don't know what 2 do anymore cause it's all BS! HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS! it's like in the past month i have found out about 2 of my best friends being gay and 3 of my good friends! OMG what the hell?? This school is fuuuuucked up! no lie...

[Jay]

There was a period during my junior year of high school where like 10 people I know came out, including my best friend at the time.

Sounds like the same thing is happening to you.

[Whitney]

yeah...it's been happening since my freshman year!

[Big J]

Maybe you turn people gay Whitney?

[Whitney]

um...no? i dont think thats it

[Big J]

You sure? ;)

Hehe, I'm just kidding with you.

[casey]

maybe they're like.. man whitneys hot... and since they cant have you, they settle for each other ?

[<3]

Yesterday was my birthday...I'm 15 yay for me!! The day started off great, my friend Erin made me a cake and brought it to my house at 6:30am with a Dr.Pepper wrapped in birthday hangy stuff, it was really cool. Then we got to school...first of all my two best friends in volleyball didn't even tell me happy birthday, they just said "sorry, no dollar for you today hoochie" Lol I was wearing a skirt. But hey thats ok. Then we didn't do leadership training in volleyball which we had to read a chapter in a book and one in a packet for(I read them both twice the night before) so that sucked. After school we had open gym so we can practice v-ball. It was awful...and sooo frustrating because some people who were in volleyball but went to track came back with an "i dont care" attitude. What's bad is most of them are my good friends and I'm trying to help them get their mind in the right place but they just dont care. Grrrrr! Joann's doing great though, she actually tries and WANTS to be better..yay Jo!! I just don't understand people who can dedicate 2 or 3 years in a sport or anything else but not even try to get better, just stay satisfied with how they already are and how their level of skill is now, it beats me! If you don't want to fully committ(<--right?) to something then don't do it at all, stop wasting everyone's time!

[Jay]

Originally posted by Skittles
If you don't want to fully committ(<--right?) to something then don't do it at all, stop wasting everyone's time!

Commit, actually.

I love volleyball. It'd be cool if they had men's volleyball teams in high school. I know I'd try out.

[pimptress]

Originally posted by Whitney
ya we had to run 10 of those the other week...then we had to run 12 100's! i about died :( im NOT IN FREAKING TRACK DAMNIT!!!


today was a pretty good day tho...Joe and all his little friends did the whole "switch with the black people clothes" day where the white guys wore the black guys clothes and the black guys wore the white guys! they did it last year but they did better this year...the black guys looked more preppy and the white guys looked a lot better than the 02 guys...cause 04 ROCKS! muwahahaha...jk

but 4 real...i give up on friends i have like 3 friends left?! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS HAS TURNED GAY!!!! no seriously...my last 3 best friends have become gay! and i always said that i wouldn't not be friends with sum1 if they were gay, but omg i can't stand it cause they don't admit to it, they LIE to my face and thats what kills me cause i have to hear from their "partners" and i find letters and stuff that r saying shit! i just don't know what 2 do anymore cause it's all BS! HIGH SCHOOL SUCKS! it's like in the past month i have found out about 2 of my best friends being gay and 3 of my good friends! OMG what the hell?? This school is fuuuuucked up! no lie...

i'll be your best friend.... but if you ever need somebody to talk to i'm here..

dude i didn't get home till 12:30am this morning.. ya i was in longview.. THATS OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF FRIKIN NO WHERE! oh well the school paid for my full rack of baby back ribs from chili's... mmm *rubs her belly* those were awesome.. i ate all of em.. including 2 glasses of strawberry lemonade and a whole plate of fries.. hey i deserved it.. i got second in the mile at regional qualifiers (pretty good since i didn't qualify for the mile to go to regionals.. and since i had a hard work out the day before) and i got 6th in the 800.. woot woot.. my times were ok.. my mile was my fastest ever but my 800 wasn't.. i still had fun... AND i didn't have to be at school till 9:30 this morning.. yea thats the life

well i just got offered another job and i think i'm going to take it.. i like it better than kohls but i'm still going to work at the mall... i do less than i would at kohls but i get paid more.. woo hoo.. kris.. i'll still get you the job at kohls though.. since you asked and all...

well i'm out of trouble and life is good... i'm just waiting for it to suck again

[<3]

Originally posted by Jay
I love volleyball. It'd be cool if they had men's volleyball teams in high school. I know I'd try out.

Yea there are some guys at our school that are great at volleyball, and most pro's are men, so I don't know why there isn't a guys team too.... that would be kewl!

[.the bitch.]

today i was mean.
i talked smack to an 8th grader while in devins car...she was scared...and then after i yelled at her from his car we drove towards her walking down the street and i made fun of her because she talks like a black person...then me and devin went back to my house...then later i saw her walking across the library lawn and i started yelling at her again and walked up to her and got in her face and she got scared...it was kinda funny...and just now my sisters friend called 3 times and each one i picked up the phone and hung it up...and now im about to go to hickville...or my parents friends house to hang out with drunks while they barbeque and make sad attempts at cutting me down...its ok i always win thought because...well i have a brain. oh and my parents figured out that last 6 weeks i hid my report card cause i got 2 c's...and they got it in the mail...im so gorunded. today sucks booty. OH and someone stole my points...and whoever did it...i hope your dog dies.

[pimptress]

ya that would suck

i'm sorry *hugs* but hey talkin smack must've been fun.. even though it was to an 8th grader.... i'll talk smack to just about anybody but dave thomas.. this huge guy at school.. god hes big

when he was asleep on the bus.. one of the guys went and opened up a bag of ketchup in his mouth (because he was sleeping with his mouth open) and dave tasted it and looked up and saw the guy and chased him down the bus...

he raped him later that night... lol jk

[Nyeh]

wow...talked smack to an 8th grader...

[Jenny]

I'm with Kris on this one...

[pimptress]

ya i was trying not to be mean tonight

[Nyeh]

well luckily i am a hate machine

[Big J]

April 18...

Sucks to have school when we were supposed to have a holiday, but whatever, at least it was an early release day. Tonight I hung out with a couple of friends I haven't seen in over a year, that was SO much fun. We went bowling then went to Denny's, hehe. It was so awesome seeing those two again after so long.

I think I'm going to ask a girl out here in a few... I really like her, and I'm pretty sure she likes me... We'll see what the answer is. I figured it was worth at least one more try with the whole dating thing, heh. :)

[pimptress]

AWWWW! how sweet jeff!

and i think its "hung" and not "young"

grr my day sucked after a while.. lots of personal crap that i won't put on here.. but its not cool.. not cool at all.. although one person will get their just deserves.. they will FINALLY pay... after the second time today.. that was it for me.. this boy is goin down

[Big J]

Whatever are you talking about? Hung not young? what? ;)

[pimptress]

TURD! i should've waited until everybody saw it!

imEVILwOoHoO: ya.. you used the wrong word on mmc.. http://www.milkmycow.com/forum/showthread....74663#post74663 (http://www.milkmycow.com/forum/showthread.php?s=&postid=74663#post74663)
Jeff 88TA: LOL
Jeff 88TA: yea Im tired
imEVILwOoHoO: lol ya you are

^there! thats my proof! mwah ha ha ha

[Big J]

Hahaha. :) <3

[pimptress]

I WIN! *dances*

now i must clean...

[Big J]

Originally posted by Blue Bird
I think I'm going to ask a girl out here in a few...

She said yes, btw. :bounce: :bounce: :bounce:

[Jay]

Nice, BB. Keep us all updated.

[janice]

hey jay. i just met you. neat. :)

woo randomness.

[Jay]

Yeah you did.

[Big J]

Originally posted by Jay
Nice, BB. Keep us all updated.

Are you being sarcastic, or am I just paranoid? :P

[pimptress]

CONGRATS JEFF! ahh i'm soo happy for you! *dances*

aw man now i'm gunna have to give you the sex talk... crap

[Whitney]

Originally posted by pimptress
ya that would suck

i'm sorry *hugs* but hey talkin smack must've been fun.. even though it was to an 8th grader.... i'll talk smack to just about anybody but dave thomas.. this huge guy at school.. god hes big

when he was asleep on the bus.. one of the guys went and opened up a bag of ketchup in his mouth (because he was sleeping with his mouth open) and dave tasted it and looked up and saw the guy and chased him down the bus...

he raped him later that night... lol jk


you mean David Thompson?

[Jay]

I wasn't being sarcastic.

[Big J]

Okay then, thanks Jay and I will, hehe. :P

[casey]

yesterday was pretty nice. i hung out with tracy and luke for a while. luke got his blazer painted and it looks awesome. luke taught tracy to drive a stick and then dani came over and we all went out to omid's. we saw their new house and me, tracy and dani all made a fire but that got boring and around 11:30 we went home. then i hung out with another friend and that was fun :D

today i've just hung out with my sister and cousins... easter egg hunts and such... i got $10 out of the deal so now I have money to get my pictures out of developing and gas! :D

[pimptress]

Originally posted by Whitney
you mean David Thompson?

ya sorry.. i was hungry when i wrote it and was thinking of getting some wendy's...

man now everybody is getting a bf/gf and i'm still the single one!

haha oh well.. life is crap (not because of the dating thing.. thats stupid) but oh well.. i don't care whatever.. i put some new strings on my guitar today.. took me like an hour to do it.. my hand is really cut up.. oh well.. there was more to my day but i don't feel like talkin right now.. later

[casey]

4/19/03

i saw joann today. the world is good.

[Jay]

Yeah, it sucks when all of your close friend get involved in relationships.

The guy I considered my best friend at college got involved with a girl a few weeks ago. Now, anytime I'm around him, I'll try to say something and then she'll say one word and his attention will be focused completely on her, so I usually just give up trying to talk. It's annoying...and I've pretty much lost my best friend because of it.

All of my other close friends are pretty much dating people, which makes for lonely nights every now and again. :(

[janice]

awwww. poor jay.

[.the bitch.]

we had our last game today and we won 11-4...my mom tried to kill me...and im grounded for 3 weeks...life sucks.

[Big J]

Why do I have a feeling the kicking of your sister in the head has something to do with this? ;)

[.the bitch.]

it really didnt and my mom literally tried to kill me...and i got grounded for my report card

[casey]

my dad was disappointed with my 82 in physics. as was i.. since thats the lowest grade i've ever gotten in any class.

[Jay]

Physics...Mrs. Coker?

[Big J]

Heh, I got a 76 in Calculus... My parents were mad the first time I got a C in that class, then I sat the book down in front of them, opened it to page 4, and asked them to do the first problem. They looked it for about thirty seconds, had no idea how to even BEGIN to do it, so after that they shut up about my C in Calculus... :P

[casey]

Originally posted by Jay
Physics...Mrs. Coker?

no, mr. elliot.

he's an awesome guy.. but sucks as a teacher. :(

[pimptress]

Originally posted by casey
4/19/03

i saw joann today. the world is good.

thanks casey.. you saw me too...

anywho well today is the world renowned NATIONAL SMOKE OUT DAY! (or national get high day..) oh and it ALSO happens to be easter.. weee!

ya well yesterday was fun.. i'm grounded from my best friend because my parents think that shes a bad influence (which if anything it would be me on her... but i'm not gunna tell my parents that) and so i took her, joann, and my sister out. I got my favorite meal ever! a vanilla creme frapp from starbucks, fried rice and sweet and sour chicken from china first.. and then i came back and picked up robin.. we went and rented jackass and stealing harvard.. then i took them to mhs and let everybody drive! oh i also went down mckensie doin like 70-75 because going down those hills really fast makes your stomach go up... blah that was fun... and then we watched "jackdonkey" (as joann so lovingly calls it) and then robin and joann went back to robins and i vacuumed and then watched stealing harvard... woot woot

wow lots of choppy sentences... and its completely out of sequence.. if i wans't so lazy i'd fix it...

[Big J]

And you drove me around. :P ;)

[casey]

Originally posted by pimptress
thanks casey.. you saw me too...


lol.. man, i sound rude. sorry about that steph. my mind was going in 72 different places and all I could think about at the time was the wonder that is joann.

but i also saw steph and i think i saw the other wonder, the batmobile. was it parked in the front of starbucks, but more towards to the corner to where half priced books is? if so. i saw it. and my great day was complete.

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

4/20
i saw casey yesterday at my fav place, starbucks. im a pyscho driver. i watched jackdonkey w/ steph and robin. then i went to robins. the day b4 i went to my friend's house ("female shaq" according to fidel) and then i went to kristens house. then alotta other girls came over. then we had LOTS of FUN! (we did lots of uhh funny things that nite.) then i came home extremely tired and brainwashed. this morning i went to church. yay. i was VERY VERY GOOD. except i taught my 3 yr old cousin to say "nigger." apparently the adults didnt find that funny. but i was amused :D. then i played tag w/ my little cousins and little games like that.
the end.
-joann.

[Whitney]

Originally posted by Ay ChEe WaWa
the day b4 i went to my friend's house ("female shaq" according to fidel) and then i went to kristens house. then alotta other girls came over. then we had LOTS of FUN! (we did lots of uhh funny things that nite.)


that jordan girl?

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

yeah haha! jordyn.
she lives on my street.
you knoe kristen hinkle?
oh, guess who went to kristens too? ..... SARA DARA!!
and so did ash g,beth, and kritens cousin.

[pimptress]

Originally posted by casey
lol.. man, i sound rude. sorry about that steph. my mind was going in 72 different places and all I could think about at the time was the wonder that is joann.

but i also saw steph and i think i saw the other wonder, the batmobile. was it parked in the front of starbucks, but more towards to the corner to where half priced books is? if so. i saw it. and my great day was complete.

yep you saw the batmobile.. haha i love it...

memo to all: do not let joann drive your car on the roads.. shes too dangerous

parking lots only for joann.. shes currently on a graduated program.. right now shes at the parking lot stage.. next is developing neighborhoods where its only roads

[Big J]

Hey now, it's only parking lots for you in my car until I deem you can handle the torque. ;)

[pimptress]

WHAT!?!?!

[Big J]

It was the same way with Devin, hehe. I wasn't about to let him out of Memorial's parking lot driving my car the first time I let him behind the wheel. :P

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

hahah, stephanie!! i was messing w/ you @ first. muwahhahah. i just wanted to see your reaction. hah. but dannnng. CALM YOURSELF! i know how to drive. like when i was actually serious...i was doing fine!! and then when you said..ok you have 5 mins left. so i started to mess around again and go fast then break, fast then break. its fun. :D

[pimptress]

ya.. its real funny when i could get my lisence taken away and a 2,000 dollar fine after only driving for less than a month..

hun you gotta understand.. it was bad enough i had robin in the car.. but if you were to wreck.. omg i would've died right there.. just said dear lord take me now

[Ay ChEe WaWa]

ok